the thing about happiness
The thing about happiness is that you can never ever truly find it and make it last forever. People would always want something they dont have and it’s not a cliche for no reason, it just gets truer and truer year after year. Excessive shopping, luxury hotels, discounted airfares; These are the things I’ve been dreaming about since I first discovered the lifestyle channel on cable. I know most people would never understand why some can even complain bout these. but these are the things I get in exchange for my sister’s production number for every school event, the priceless chuckles of my nephews, the daily debates of my parents over breakfast, the sweet kisses of the love of my life, and a career that I know I know best. I can’t believe how shopping makes me cringe nowadays, i’ve been using it as a form of therapy for my current depression and it’s never good, it’s been making me think of the unfortunate people we have back home but still I can’t stop and I tell you it feels worst when I see that I’ve been buying the same stuff (i think that’s the first sign you got everything that you need in your closet).the hotels I would always love the goosedown pillows except that crappy overrated room service makes me miss Filipino food to the point that I always choose the ones (I think) is closer to Filipino dish.and those discounted tickets?i never had used it for another country because the one place all I ever want to be is home.
Bu then again everytime i look outside my apartment window i can’t help but feel guilty for all the times ive complained about my life, I instantly remember the time I have prayed the hardest I can so I can get exactly the things that I have now. I never thought that none of these will seem to matter if I’m not with the people I love. all the beautiful things just saddens me even more. I miss my life.
